Teenage Wasteland

M Is For Murder.

2012-02-12T08:55:00.000+08:00

I miss going back to our house. Haven't been home for almost a month now. I miss eating home-cooked meals. I'm getting really sick with fast food.

Anyway, what I'm thinking right now is should I or should I not buy new flats? I've been seriously longing for a new pair since Christmas. Haven't had the time to look for the perfect pair, though. Anyway, if I'm going to buy new flats today, it's going to be the cheap ones since my mom's not with me to be my financier. K. Hahahaha.

This week was such a crazy and fun week. All the junior CA students organized and prepared the annual AB Faculty Show. It was super fun! This is what I like to do, I like the rush, the chaos, and the panic! It's overwhelming and.. I dunno, it's satisfying! I prefer these kind of things than the thesis shit. Ugh. Give me physical stress anytime.

I miss my mom. I think she's going to visit me tomorrow since I don't have any morning classes. So... We'll see.

Gotta Be Strong, Gotta Move On.

2012-02-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hold me now cause I couldn't even if I tried
It's over now I guess it really is my time
I don't want to go but it's time I gotta say goodbye
So hold me now cause this will be our last time

I'm slowing down and I don't think that I can fight
I know somehow you'll find a way to live your life
Remember just to live everyday like it's your last
And hold me now cause I think it's time for me to pass

I don't wanna die, I don't know why
This kind of fate was meant for me
You gotta be strong, gotta move on
It's not how it was supposed to be

What you wanna say?
It was never supposed to end up this way
What do I have to do?
When supposed to grow old with you

But that ain't gonna happen
No that ain't gonna happen

Hold me now cause the time I've got running now
No tears allowed even though we've become without
I just wanna feel your head lying on my chest
So hold me now as I take my last breath

I don't wanna die, I don't know why
This kind of fate was meant for me
You gotta be strong, gotta move on
It's not how it was supposed to be

What you wanna say?
It was never supposed to end up this way
What do I have to do?
When supposed to grow old with you

But that ain't gonna happen
No that ain't gonna happen

I like songs that talk about death. I don't know why. Anyway, chill song. I love this.

Stick It To The Man.

2012-02-04T22:01:00.000+08:00

I should learn to be more responsible. God. I'm doing my very late Adver paper right now. Ugh. Fine. Fine... So many things to do... So little time. :| Please God, motivate me.

Remember Just To Live Everyday Like It's Your Last.

2012-02-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

It was a weird and long day yesterday. One thing's for sure.. Junior year isn't boring. :)) Anyway, God, please answer some of my prayers. Please, please, please, please, please!

And When I Wake From This Nightmare I Will Dream Reality.

2012-01-29T23:32:00.000+08:00

Bloody amazing song. :>

You Just Met Somebody New.

2012-01-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the Neo-Centennial (?) thing in UST. Spent the day with everyone + Mikee and Nikki Ore - Nicole de Leon. Huhuhu. I miss Nicole! She's the cutest thing ever!
Went to LaSalle today. Thanks Raia for everything! Kahit nagising namin sya. Still, fail kaya umalis na din lang kami. :))
Went to National Library. Grabe. Hassle sa muscle! And I'm not even exaggerating! Super init and haba ng lines and.. Dear God.
Pero kahit ganon, I had fun. I spent the day with Quimbo and Ekay. We didn't really do anything but I enjoyed spending the day with them.
Life in bullets.. Ginaya ko si Jodie. Hahahahha.
Omg, I almost forgot! It's my parents' 21st wedding anniversary today! Can't wait to pig out tomorrow. Hihihi.

This picture gets me every fucking time. Maybe it's because of the recent, well, loss we experienced. Anyway, I can't imagine life without my parents. I love them so much. I don't show it much but, God, I love them more than I love and food (and that's saying something.) Basta. You wont get me. They're the best parents in the world (most of the time) Even if I'm not their favorite, it's okay. It doesn't change anything, really. Huhuhu. Can't picture life without my mom or my poppy. Huhuhuhu.

I Want A Mom That Would Last Forever.

2012-01-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

If there's someone who knows me inside and out, it's probably my mom. She knows if my anger comes from hunger, PMS, or tantrums lang. She knows what to do during these kind of situations. Siguro, somehow, na-spoil ako because she would always make lambing or suyo whenever I'm really angry or annoyed. The thing is, I don't want her to love my brother more than me. I'm sorry, I'm a really possessive person. See, I always need to have someone to reassure me that he/she loves me. Okaaaaaay. I don't know why I'm saying all of these things when my only point is.. I miss my mom. So much. I miss updating her with all the news I heard from my blockmates, I miss telling her how my crush talked to me.. I miss being with her. God, I love her so much, I don't know what I would do if she ever leaves me. So, I have this selfish, well, wish. I want to die before her. No, scratch that. I need to die before her. I seriously wouldn't know what to do if she's gone. The only drive and reason I have, I mean, on why I go to school is to make sure that, well, someday, I could repay her. I mean, if it's possible, maybe I could make her meet Sylvester Stallone. I know that would make her really shit-freaky happy. I just want her to be happy ALWAYS. Okay. So, I need to die before her. I fucking swear that I couldn't live without her. I'm sure of that.

God, I fucking babbled away, huh? I miss my mom. That's all. I miss her so fucking much.

And It Wont Make Sense Right Now But You're Still Her Friend.

2012-01-20T19:25:00.000+08:00

This is motherfucking hilarious. Plus, it's a really great song! :))

And You're Cool With Just Being Friends.

2012-01-15T23:54:00.003+08:00

When The World Slips You A Jeffrey, Stroke The Furry Wall.

2012-01-13T21:49:00.001+08:00

At my Political Dynamics class today, I lost it. God. PMS is such a bitch. Anyway, I was wallowing in self-pity. I received my quiz paper and I only got 4/50. And I failed my recitation thing too. I only got 67. So, I got really quiet and I realized that, man, I'm not good in anything -- at all. I suck in school. I seriously suck in most of my subjects. I don't know what's going to happen to me after graduation. I suck in sports. If you haven't noticed the layers of fat I have, you should seriously have to get your eyes checked. I'm not an artist. I don't even have any talent in music. Pluuus, mother fucker, I'm motherfucking hideous. I am not asking anyone for pity or anything... I'm just stating the facts. I'm not good in anything. I mean, that would be okay if I'm gorgeous or attractive or something but I'm not. Or it could be the other way around, I could be ugly but really, really, really smart. I'm neither. I'm a hideous and stupid creature. No wonder my family prefers my brother. He's the golden boy. Why do I even exist. I mean, seriously. Why?

God, PMS is such a bitch. My back hurts, my boobs hurt, I have these weird cramps thing and my moods are so.. annoyingly unstable. I want to cry out of frustration.

So, anyway, the thing is, even if I'm not PMS-ing, I still believe that I'm not good in anything. Don't mind me, please dwell on your successes. It's okay. :-)

Yay, Super Fun!

2012-01-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hirap din namang kausap 'no? Sinabi ko lang na, "Wow, 10 pm na pala." tas nakarating na sa, "Gusto nyo talaga kaming mamatay 'no?" Aba punyeta. Nasaan 'yun sa "WOW, 10 PM NA PALA." tas ngayon, ako 'yung sobrang inconsiderate na tao dahil nairita ako? WOW. Tas magtataka ka kung bakit hindi ganong nakikipag-usap sayo? Eh tuwi namang magsstart ng conversation, in the end, meron ka ng ikinagagalit o kaya nirereklamo o kinicriticize. Wag ka nalang makipag-usap, okay? Punyeta. Feeling nyo ang dali dali lang ng pinag-gagagawa ko dahil palibhasa 'yung magaling nyong anak ang nakikita at naririnig nyong palaging nagkkwento tungkol sa school, ganon. Hindi nyo man lang naisip na nagkakaproblema ako sa school. Tas kung magsalita kayo parang alam na alam nyo lahat ng nangyayari sakin. Ni 1% nga ng problema o pagka-down ko, wala kayong alam eh. Dapat palaging kayo ang intindihin, ni minsan talaga hindi nyo naisip na nagkakaproblema ako na kelangan ko ng kausap. Pero dahil ganyan naman palagi, wag nalang. Kakausapin ko nalang yung sarili ko kesa marinig yung mga "Gusto nyo na talaga kaming mamatay 'no?"

Wag nalang tayong mag-usap lahat ng walang sumasagot at walang naiirita.

Girl, I Wanna, I Wanna See You Tonight.

2012-01-08T21:52:00.001+08:00

I am seriously not a vain person. I could step out of the house wearing my jammies with my hair flying all around. (I seriously need to stop caring about my, uhm, looks) ANYWAY, the thing I'm, well, vain about is my face. I get annoyed when it's rough and when I have white heads or zits. Ugh. Dear Jesus, besides my exceptional humor.. My face is the moneymaker, man. It's the moneymaker!

OH MY GOD HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I'M KIDDING! I want to wring my neck and snap it into two. HAHAHAHAHA. See, my humor is great, huh? Lol. Anyway, the poooooint is.. I don't want my face to look like a mine of pimples and black heads and gross stuff. I feel so ugly. Huhuhu.

Plus, omg.. All the stress from school. I think I've aged a lot since last school year. I look like a 30 year old now. HUHUHUHU. This can not be.... THIS CAN NOT BE.

Oh well. I can't wait to finish this maddening PolDy shit. I just want to get it over with. Hehe.

Nobody Said It Was Easy.

2012-01-07T09:14:00.000+08:00

I can't wait to get out of school. I'm so.. Tired. I don't know if I'm PMS-ing or what. Anyway, I hate school. I just want to read A Clash of Kings all day long.

I'm watching a new series called Last Man Standing. It's sort-of like Modern Family. Anyway, it's not really super hilarious but it's okay. It's really entertaining.

I can't wait for the long weekend ahead. I need a breaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak. Already. :)) Hehehe.

Stay On Your Feet For Me.

2012-01-05T19:08:00.001+08:00

Super random post.

I don't own any of the pictures. I just find them fascinating and lovely.

MMMMMMMMMMM.

2012-01-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Give me some of that lovin'!

The Year That Was..

2011-12-31T09:54:00.001+08:00

2011 was such a big jerk to me. I've faced a lot of challenges this year. Some I never thought I would experience. My grandfather died, some sort of family crisis happened, my grandmother was confined in the hospital for 3 weeks, some idiot in school made me want to break her neck into two, school crisis blah blah blah.. Looking back at all of these (for the lack of a better word) incidents, it made me realize that SOMEHOW, I grew up.

I learned how to stand on my own, especially if my family's not around. It made me think that I'm getting old and I need to learn how to be responsible. Life isn't just about play, play, play. Life has this crazy way of fucking things up and making you want to just hurl yourself on an incoming bus in a highway full of bustling cars and automobiles. It would stomp on your heart and it would squeeze your soul until you have nothing left. It would leave you crying and writhing on the floor. That's the thing, that's how life is.

But you know what? There's always faith. I don't mean to preach, it's never really my style but, yeah, sometimes when there's no one left, all you got to do is pray. I mean, you don't really have anything to lose, right? It's just that and lots and lots of hope that maybe one day everything's going to be okay.

2011 was a farthole. It drained me. But then, it also taught me something -- I could bounce back.

So, here's to a better year! 2012, BE GOOD.

She Holds A Smile Like Someone Would Hold A Crying Child.

2011-12-30T20:42:00.001+08:00

DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE IS COMING ON THE 5TH OF MARCH. 20 days before my 20TH birthday! This is a freaking sign from God. I NEED TO WATCH DEATH CAB. I love them more than life itself! I would sell my soul for tickets! I've been praying for 6 fucking years and.. FINALLY. FINALLY THEY'RE COMING! Please God let me watch my favoritest band in the whole wide world. Please make my dad see the light. Please. I love Death Cab super!

Anyway, I found these cute pictures in Tumblr! I just want to share them to you. HIHI:

Food and Harry Potter! Two of my favorite things! Hihi.

We're Not Gonna Float On Your Worn Down Boat.

2011-12-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

I want a new pair of flats. I mean, seriously, I need to dress/act like a girl more. Plus, I guess I should start acting my age. I'm turning 20 on my next birthday, for God's sake. What brought about this change? See.. Last Christmas, we were talking about my 16 and 15 yr. old cousins. My mom was telling my aunt that my two cousins were very dalaga. And my aunt said, "Oo nga eh. Sa Facebook, sa twitter.. Kung anu-ano na ang pinaguusapan. Tas nako-conscious na." My mom looked at me (see, I was sprawled on the chair, nakabukaka, and I was tilting the chair), "Ibang iba dito kay Rina." Then my brother butted in, "Mas lalaki pa nga sakin 'yang si Ate eh."

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??

It means that I should be, hmmm, more matured. I should start dressing up like a girl. I should stop looking like a skater boy. Huhu. In my defense, it's not my fault that I like guys' clothes. They're so pretty to look at and they're too darn comfortable. Guys' shirts, shorts, and shoes are amazing. AMAZING. Dear God,. Anyway, whatever. I'm determined to act like a girl. Wooooo. I think that's going to be my New Year's Resolution. Hihihi. Jared's going to love me, for sure. :">

MEHEHEHE.

I'm Crossing Fingers And Hoping Life Works Out.

2011-12-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

The truth is, I'm tired of being sad and having a voice at the back of my mind mutter things like, "Be miserable. Blah blah blah." So, I'm doing this the traditional-family way. Happy or angry. Happy or angry. Happy or angry. I prefer to be happy forever, though. Hihihi.

As of this moment, I am extremely happy! Christmas was not as depressing as I imagined. It wasn't exactly fun but it was okay. I guess? :-)

I bought the Game of Thrones set (composed of the first 4 books) So stoked to read them all! Hihi. I am so happy, it's insane! Some things are going just the way it used to be. Thank you God. After months and months and months and months of begging.. Thank you so much!

Life is wonderful, isn't it? :-)

Don't Count The Calories.

2011-12-22T18:36:00.000+08:00

Craving for junk these past few days.. weeks.. whatever. Haven't had my burger/pizza/pasta fix yet (No, actually that's not true. I had pizza and lasagna yesterday. Still. I want to eat it everyday) Let's enjoy some pictures, shall we?

I live to eat.

It’s This Twisted Up Memory That I Can’t Unwind.

2011-12-20T21:04:00.001+08:00

I fucking lost 1 thousand pesos last Friday. But, hey, things like that happen. I might've dropped it when I was getting my hanky from my pocket. I might've put it somewhere. I might've been really reckless and irresponsible last Friday. But, what the fuck, things like that happen. It's okay.

And then today, to-fucking-day, I lost my khaki Esprit bag. It's a fucking big deal because I loved that bag! It goes with almost everything. And it's, like, one of the most practical bags ever. As in practical! Do you know what happened? Punyeta, may nagnakaw sa sampayan namin. SAMPAYAN. Is the world fucking with me? I mean, seriously, life has been a downer this (or should it be 'these'..?) past few months tas ganito pa. GANITO PA!!!!!!! Tas, what, 5 days nalang, Christmas na. Are you fucking kidding me, world?! I should remember to chill the fuck out pero, God, as in RAGE. RAGE. People really do that? I mean, they really steal? I wish the thief chokes on his own saliva and bleed to death. May he have a long and miserable life. Fuck you, asshole. Thanks for making my already disappointing Christmas more merry.

I want a new bag. I need a new bag. Or the Dorothy Perkins flats I've been eyeing.

Is My Imagination The Only Meaning?

2011-12-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

Hi Jodie. I miss you.

On And On, We Sing The Same Song.

2011-12-18T20:06:00.002+08:00

Create a playlist at MixPod.com

Obsessing over Deas Vail and Gran Ronde. Jesus Christ. Listen to them. They're awesome. :"> And it's so freakin' fine to listen to them with this kind of weather. Hihi.

Waves.

2011-12-17T13:46:00.003+08:00

******

EDIT: Do you know what freaks me out? I think I'm turning into some person that the old and normal me would loathe. I've been having this weird and bipolar feelings recently. One minute I'm boisterously laughing, the next minute, I want to fling my hands around and murder the first person I see. Is something wrong with me? Like, seriously? I never had these extreme tendencies and feelings before. Now? It's just freakishly different. It scares me sometimes.

I don't know if I'm feeling these.. um.. feelings and experiencing these bipolar tendencies because of all the fucked up things happening in my life right now. Dear God, I don't want to be melodramatic. The thing is, I'm just fucking sick of everything. And I mean everything. I can't see the sunshine or the rainbow after the rain. I would never see the glass being half-full. I can't freakin' see the cloud's silver lining! It's all fucked-up everything. Home, school, family, friends.. Everything. What's there to be happy about? What's there to be thankful for? What's there to look forward to? God, my problems never.. It never stops from flowing and from making me go crazy.

I have no idea when this free-falling, brain-fucking, heart-stopping, whirlwind ride would stop. I don't know what to do anymore. I've been begging and pleading with God for, what, 2 months now. It just never stops. I know He has these Divine plans for all of us but.. Please, oh, please. Can these plans come sooner? Please? Before I lose all of the sanity I'm desperately clinging and holding on to.

People can't (and honestly shouldn't) judge me. Nobody knows what I've been going through lately. Nobody.

Chasing All The Things That're Keeping Us Young.

2011-12-15T18:32:00.000+08:00

☺ ☺ ☺

This Can't Be Healthy.

2011-12-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

Today is my lolo's burial day. Like what I've said, in this family, we never show our emotions. So, during the mass and the eulogy thing my uncle gave, I was trying hard not to cry. I was biting my cheek, I was pinching my arms.. Anything to stop me from crying. Sadly, I failed. I sniffed loudly and gave in to the few tears I "bravely" showed. The truth is, the tears the people saw, it's not enough. There's more, actually. I was holding everything back, my throat hurts and it feels like I'm going to choke (I don't know if you guys ever experienced this feeling when you were trying so hard not to cry) and my nose was, like, producing a lot of snot.

I can't believe my grandfather's gone. Like, gone. He's an amazing person. If you guys ever knew him, you would enjoy talking to him. He's hilarious and fun to talk to. You could talk about anything under the sun. He has this facial expression he makes when he's really amused. And he has this cough-like laugh, which I think is charming.. I would miss these things. I would miss talking to him. I would miss teasing him. I would miss his anecdotes. I would miss his rants regarding my grandmother. I would miss my grandfather a lot. He's one of the very few people I really, really, really love. And, dear God, during the mass and the eulogy and the burial, my heart was breaking into a bajillion pieces. It hurts. I'm not kidding. It friggin' hurts. I'll miss my grandfather so much. So much.

This Christmas is going to suck balls.

Stuck Inside The Tangles Of My Mind.

2011-12-10T22:34:00.004+08:00

You Annoying Piece Of Fuck.

2011-12-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

I think I'm PMS-ing again. I'm in a very bad state right now. I don't want to see anybody. And I just want to kill someone. Anyone. This misanthropic tendency is frightening sometimes.

The thing is.. I really feel lonely and sad and miserable and alone. And I can't show it when I'm at school. That's why I laugh a lot or joke a lot. See, I have this tendency to run away from my problems. In our house, the only emotions we show are joy and anger. No sadness, no grief. It's either you're really happy or really angry. So, this thing right now, it would be really weird to show it. Anyway, it feels good to run away from everything that's bothering you. You don't have to face it. I know it's a sign of cowardice but.. Who the fuck ever told you I'm brave, anyway? I can't face all the things that's going on right now.

I'm dreading Christmas. I can't stay at the dorm and curl up like a fetus and ignore everyone. I have to be with everyone. It's really frustrating.

Nobody really knows what's going on (except Jodie.) I've kept mum for so long, I think I'm going to burst. Oh well. I think it's better this way anyway.

I'm sad, that's all.

I Will Follow You Into The Dark.

2011-12-08T00:27:00.002+08:00

The best grandfather in the whole wide world died last December 4.

Where's my fucking Christmas miracle, Santa?

Instincts Are Misleading.

2011-12-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

It's the first of December. Wow. 24 more days and it's Christmas again. Christmas is going to be.. Disappointing this year. I bet.

Anyway, can I just say that I've been craving for a bagel since, I dunno, yesterday. Can't stop googling bagels. I want to eat one with a lot of cream cheese, bacon, and eggs. Omg. I really want one. Please make my bagel fantasies come true!

Come to think of it, a grilled salmon bagel would do too.

BAGEL. BAGEL. BAGEL.

And Just Like Ships We Float Through Each Other's Lives.

2011-11-30T21:36:00.000+08:00

I'm so excited to watch this! Haven't watched it yet because I'm depending on Nikki's copy. Mehehehe. Anyway, Miranda's back! Rosie and Isabeli didn't participate this year, though. Sucks. Oh well. Can't wait to finally watch them strut around the runway. I can't wait to see Adriana's gorgeousness! She's my favorite Angel. :))

P.S. Listen to Blind Walrus' Ships. It's.. Beautiful. Chill, chill song. Hihihi.

I Ain't Gonna Lie, I Could Be A Nasty Guy.

2011-11-29T19:38:00.000+08:00

Last night, I talked to someone I haven't talked to for, what, a year now. Missed that kid. Miss how close we used to be.

I'm Letting You Down, You Are Just Hiding It So Well.

2011-11-27T21:36:00.003+08:00

I get really annoyed and, well, offended whenever people think I'm dumb, stupid, or even moronic. I get really defensive whenever the topic's about intelligence or talents.

I talk a lot. I laugh a lot. I'm boisterous. And I don't take things seriously. Does that make me a cretin? I make a lot of jokes (most of them awful) Does that make me a half-witted dumb ass? I rarely listen to Mozart or Beethoven or Debussy. Does that mean I'm an idiot? I don't get half of the terms they say in The Big Bang Theory. Wow, am I dunderhead because of these things? Seriously?

I talk in circles. I stutter when I nervous. My mind goes blank whenever a professor asks a question to me by surprise. And, I guess that means I have a pea for a brain, huh?

The thing is, I may not be the brightest student in class, I may not be the messiah or the Albert Einstein-prodigy of this generation.. but, I'm happy. Well, most of the time, I am. Come to think of it, why do I even have to prove myself? Oh yeah, because you stinking lot think that you're the brainiest and smartest people in the planet. Dude, half the people in that class are smarter than you. They just don't try. They're just too lazy to try. So, in a way, you're lucky they don't attempt to nerd-up or something. Where will you end up if those people study? Where?

Truth be told, honey, you're no better than the rest of us.

It's A Ruse, It's A Laugh.

2011-11-25T09:47:00.001+08:00

I'm not kidding when I say that this is a mind-blowing and astonishing song. Seriously! If you loved Fanfarlo's I'm A Pilot or The Paper Kites' Woodland.. You'll love this. It's.. less.. Indie? Anyway, Jesus Christ, listen to it, listen to it, listen to it! I fell in love with the song the minute I heard it. Hihihi. I hope you'll do too.

And All You Wanted Was Somebody Who Cares.

2011-11-24T10:14:00.000+08:00

Anyway, I've finished watching Downton Abbey last night. Omg I can't freakin' wait for September 2012!!! What's going to happen to Lady Mary? Is Sybil really going to stay forever in Dublin? Are they going to lock up Mr. Bates again? WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN? Omg. The wait is killing me.

And, can I just say that I'm really disappointed with Lord Grantham!! I thought he's going to stay loyal forever to Lady Grantham and then.. He freakin' kissed a maid. "I want you with every fiber of my being." Well, fuck you very much.

Sorry. I got carried away. =)) ANYWAY, SEPTEMBER 2012.. COME SOONER PLEAAASE!

Once Upon A Midnight Dreary, While I Pondered Weak And Weary.

2011-11-23T07:55:00.000+08:00

Hooplas Involving Circus Tricks.

2011-11-22T09:52:00.001+08:00

Talked to Jodie last night. Dunno what to do without her. Mehehehe.

Anyway, Quimbo's making me watch Being Human, but, I thought it was sort of spooky so I switched to Downton Abbey immediately. Omgggg. One of the best series in the whole wide world! It's so gooood. I mean, it's that good!

It's almost 10 am, I'm starving and I want to eat breakfast or brunch.. whatever.. but, I'm lazy to go outside and buy food. The weather makes me cling on to my bed for dear life. Oh well. I'll buy food.. whenever.

Going to watch Donnie Darko later. Mehehe.

Bye. Whatever.

******

EDIT: I watched Donnie Darko. Omg, I'm not exaggerating when I say that it's probably one of the awesome-est movies in the whole wide world. It's like my 2nd American Psycho. So amazing and wonderful. Omg.

Am I Just Bad Luck?

2011-11-20T12:57:00.001+08:00

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

Swing life away [x4]

Yesterday night was one of the best nights of my entire life.

Shitty, shitty, shit, shit. Yidii, yadah, yadah. Shitty, shit, shit.

Blah, blah, blah, blah.

I Want To Stab You To Death, And Then Play Around With Your Blood.

2011-11-18T09:13:00.001+08:00

"There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing."

- American Psycho

Ditto.

It's my favorite-est movie in the whole wide world.

I'll Give You The Mean.

2011-11-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

No classes today. I stayed at home and downloaded the complete season 2 of Downton Abbey. Omg. It's such a gorgeous series. I'm currently in love with Rob James-Collier. He plays Thomas in the series. He's.. quite foxy and.. Really stunning. And his British accent.. *fans self* Hubbah hubbah.

He's so handsome, he's going to send me to a coma.

Anyway, I'm also currently loving their Theme tune. Here, listen to it:

I'm in love with Downton Abbey. It's a good thing, I think. It helps me forget all of my problems. And I mean problems. Mainly, family-related. Anyway, whatever. Gonna go run away from everything again. Hihi.

I'll Keep The Shitty Tattoos.

2011-11-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

Wow, That's Lovely. Wonderful.

2011-11-15T13:16:00.000+08:00

So, I've been watching Skins since last night. I'm such a loser because I only started watching now. ANYWAY, I like Sid and Cassie. I think they're both charming and endearing and wonderful. While I was watching, all I could think of was their parents. They have irresponsible and selfish parents. It's quite saddening, really.

I'm really hungry. It started pouring last night so I let Mariam borrow my umbrella. Now, I can't freakin' buy food because it's raining. I'm starving. Staaaaaaaarving. I can't believe I'm saying this because I'm seriously the rain's number 1 fan but.. Please, please, Mr. Rain, stop a little bit. Let me buy food. God, I get really cranky when I'm hungry. Huhuhuhu.

Oh yeah, I'm going home tomorrow. I have no classes on Friday so I could sleep at the house for 2 days..? I dunno. Basta, I'm going home. Hihihi. That's nice.

But Here And Now, I'm On My Own.

2011-11-10T08:28:00.000+08:00

Gaaaah. Worst day ever yesterday. I almost got kicked out of the dorm because of illegally possessing something that isn't mine. After that, when we were going home, a thief snatched Yam's bag. God. It was so traumatizing. Yam was like 2 steps away from me. Omg. The only good thing is that the thief didn't hurt Yam or anyone of us. God, I would stop bringing my iPod and wallet from this time one. Plus, I would also use my old bag. Still so freaked out.

Hay nako. I'm sort of pissed. Why do people have to steal? Seriously. Jesus. What annoying little fucks.

This One Belongs To You.

2011-11-08T19:47:00.002+08:00

Pre-school songs. Awesome tracks.

So You Write Our Sins In Our Blood.

2011-11-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

I watched A Cinderella Story for the first time today. I was bored out of my wits and I don't know what to watch anymore, so, yeah, I watched Hilary Duff turn into Sam Montgomery. Anyway, the movie was shown and released 7 years ago, so, everything was so different. Especially the cell phones. Everyone has a flip phone.

I WANT A FLIP PHONE SO BAD. So bad. When I go to GH, I swear I'm going to buy one. Kahit dual-band papatulan ko talaga. I just want to own one. Even if it's not high-tech, it's okaaaay! I swear. I want one so much. I want one. I want one. I want one. I don't even care about the features or brand. I just want one so I could play with it and pretend that I'm in a movie or something (Please don't make me elaborate about my fantasy business calls. HAHAHAHA.)

I even googled for some pictures! Look at how cute they are:

Jesus Christ, I want one so muuuuch. :( Huhuhu.

Remember, Remember The 5th Of November.

2011-11-05T21:09:00.001+08:00

So, I'm thinking of changing my lotion -- again. I've been using Victoria's Secret since I was 10 but when I turned 17, I tried using different products like Jergens, Johnsons & Johnsons baby lotion thing, and the butter thing from The Body Shop. Now, I'm thinking of trying Philosophy. So, my goal is to visit Beauty Bar and ask for the goddamn, bloody lotion from Philosophy -- preferably their Aloha Girl one (It's vanilla coconut scented! Hihihi.) I would even settle for Cinnamon. Mehehe. Dear God, I hope it's available here in the Philippines, the scent/flavor, I mean. My skin needs some sweet-oh-lovin'. KBYE.

I can't believe the semestral break's ending. I am so not ready to go back to school. I haven't bought a new notebook yet. I need a new one.

Anyway, I've been listening to The Paper Kite's Woodland all day. It's such a pretty, pretty, pretty song. Speaking of music, I need a new pair of earphones. Mine's gone wacko. Oh Christ. I couldn't make my earphones last for more than a month. Jesus.

I'm babbling again, huh? Anyway, it's the 5th of November! You guys should seriously read V For Vendetta (graphic novel.) Alan Moore's so fucking fantastic. I'm not exaggerating. *teardrops* HAHAHAHAHA! Seriously speaking, do you guys remember the movie Watchmen? It's based on Alan Moore's graphic novel of the same name. I watched the movie, it was crap. CRAP. It's different from the novel. The movie missed the point of, uh, everything. I'm sorry. This is just my opinion. Hmph. ANYWAY, after 3 years of searching and looking for From Hell (another graphic novel by Alan Moore), Yo finally found one in Eastwood last August (?) He bought it for 2000 pesos. I said that he should've waited for the Book Fair (which we fuckingly missed. This is the first time we missed it. After 8 years of diligently.. Ugh.) because it would be a hell-lot cheaper. He said that we've been looking for it for a long time (we tried looking for it in every bookstore in NCR, to be fair) so he's not going to let it out of his grip. I haven't read it yet but omg!!!! I am so excited. Hihihi. See, it's about Jack the Ripper. So, I'm sure it's going to be mind-blowing. Alan Moore + Pyschopath + Historical Content = PERFECT. Omg!

You're A Disgrace To The Concept Of Family.

2011-11-02T16:02:00.000+08:00

The one thing I realized today is that you can't depend on your family. You can't and you shouldn't. Sure, they might be there when you were having troubles when you were a kid but that's that. Of course they're there during your "superstar" moments but that's all there is to that relationship. Afterwards, you grow older and you face real problems that could make The Hulk go to a nervous breakdown, then you'll realize that you're alone. Where's your family now? Where are the stupid promises to protect you and support you and listen to you? Just because someone new came along doesn't mean that they should have more responsibilities to that person. They don't even listen to you anymore or talk to you unless they're going to ask you to do something for them or for that person. You're not even asking for any material shit or what, you just want someone to listen and talk to you.

You can't really depend on your friends either because it's selfish (seriously) to pass the weight on your shoulders to them.

So, there you go fellas, you can't depend on anybody because they're just going to disappoint you and crush your soul. At the end of the day, it's just going to be you. Believe me, human, I know.

Love And Love And Happy Afternoons.

2011-11-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

P. S. 53 more days 'till Christmas (Got that here.) I don't think I'm excited.

Oh God I Feel Like I'm In For It Now.

2011-10-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

So, what's playin'?

The Latency's - Fork In The Road

Angels & Airwaves - The Gift

The Shins - Australia

Ten Second Epic - Yours To Lose

Sex Pistols - God Save The Queen

The Weepies - They're In Love, Where Am I?

The Weepies - Please Speak Well Of Me

Sail By The Stars - Wingspan And Flight Plans

The Killers - Spaceman

The Paper Kites - Woodland

I would recommend this playlist (especially The Weepies and The Paper Kites) for a rainy and chill day. It kinda sucks, though, because the rain hasn't come my way yet. It's so scalding-ly hot these days.

What's The Best We Could Make Of Today?

2011-10-29T21:49:00.001+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥

When You Hear This Song, I Hope Your Ears Bleed.

2011-10-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

I had a very funny and wonderful dream last night. I was with my mom and Jodie, then we went to the Rico Rodriguez salon (don't ask me, Rico Rodriguez is Manny from Modern Family. I think he's super duper cute. So, I don't know why he has a salon in my dream) Anyway, when we got there, all my blockmates were there. They were throwing a surprise birthday party for Rico Rodriguez. When Rico came, he was a different guy. He's all grown-up with a beer belly and a weird mustache but he was gay. (This stuff's getting weirder and weirder, believe me! Hahaha.) So, everyone's having fun with the booze and Rico's funny antics and then Jodie and I found out that we were accepted in Hogwarts, along with a certain blockmate of mine and another person I can't remember (this bothers me a lot. Although, some parts, I think it's Floro. So weird.)

Jodie and I plus my certain blockmate and his side-kick decided to go to Krispy Kreme and celebrate our Hogwarts acceptance letter. But, before we got to Krispy Kreme, we decided to go my house and practice with our wands (I don't know how we got our wands without going to Diagon Alley. So weird.) So, we were trying out spells like Accio, and Aguementi and then I had this crazy idea to try Sectumsempra to a civilian. Before I could do it and find out its effects or something, I woke up. *sigggghs* It was so frustrating. I didn't get to see what happened.

This dream was really amazing, though. It was such an adventure! There were even parts when I was driving and overspeeding and I was good. Man, I was a good driver.

So, today, I watched the mini-series Lost In Austen. It was so amazing and I loved it so freakin' much! It was funny and, yeah, witty. I want to reread Pride and Prejudice because of this! The thing in the story that made me wince a little bit was the fact they fall in love easily. Like, easily. It was disturbing. Another fact was the actress who played Jane. I think that role should be saved for Rosamund Pike. She's the perfect Jane Bennet! Morven Christie is a good actress but, god, she's.. I don't picture Jane looking like that. Seriously. Rosamund Pike is the perfeeeeect Jane! ♥

On the other hand, Gemma Arterton was the perfect Elizabeth Bennet! Perfect, I tell you! She doesn't really have a huge role here but, man, she's the Lizzy Bennet I've been picturing in my mind. Keira Knightley can rot in hell. (I'm sorry, I don't like her. And she crapped out the Pride and Prejudice movie. It was ruined! It wasn't what I expected. Hmph.) Plus, plus, plus, take a look at Gemma Arterton, she's such a babe! How is it even possible to have such a beautiful person like her walking around this grassy, green Earth?

Beautiful! Anyway, God, I love Pride and Prejudice so much. I must've read it 3x already. I want Mr. Darcy! He's such a perfect gentleman. Hihihi. Plus, he's really handsome too. Elliot Cowen played Mr. Darcy in Lost In Austen and he's perfect. Perffffffffffect! I don't like the Mr. Darcy in the Pride and Prejudice movie. Suuuuucks.

I'm sorry. I didn't like the movie. I think it was a waste of my time.

So, yeah. Watch Lost In Austen! Hihihi.

God Save The Queen. ♕

2011-10-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

So, when I tell you guys to listen to something, you should do it because, let's face it, I have an awesome taste in music.

HAHAHAHA. I'M KIDDING! That statement's freakin' conceited, that's not even me talking! Ugh, I ought to eat a cardboard or something. Hahaha! Some people who aren't close to me might think I'm a egocentric bastard. Which I'm not. Seriously.

Anyway, to cut the bullshit, (I know I've said it, like, a bajillion times before but, hey, cut me some slack. Hahaha!) you guys should seriously, seriously, seriously listen to this awesome song. It's such a beautiful song, it brings tears to my eyes. Better yet, download their album: Never Mind The Bollocks, Here's The Sex Pistols. Great tracks. If you loved this, I would also recommend the Ramones and The Who. Awesome bands. They're a lot louder than The Beatles so, it could help you stay up and do an all-nighter or something.

P. S. My grandfather's in the 4th stage of his lung cancer.. thing. I can't lose it in front of my parents and my brother so, I've been keeping a happy-sappy face all day. This news is really saddening, though. God. I must see him soon. I don't think I'm ready to lose the best grandfather in the world. So, yeah, can you pray for him or something? You see, we haven't told him yet. He doesn't know. God, I'm talking about grown-up things now. It doesn't even sound like me. So many things are happening, I think my mind's going to explode. So, yeah. Sure.

Oh God.

2011-10-26T12:41:00.002+08:00

Oh God. I just found out that my favorite grandfather in the whole wide world has lung cancer. Fuck. God, sana di pa malalang stage.

♛ ♛ ♛

2011-10-25T18:13:00.001+08:00

Today is such a great day. Come to think of it, maybe I'm just in a very good mood. Nothing specific or heart-pounding happened today. It's just an ordinary Tuesday but I feeeeel so marvelous and ecstatic. I have no idea why. Maybe I've come to the terms that I have to be more patient with my grandmother. Anyway, whatever the reason is, I hope it stays. HIHIHI.

I was going through my Tumblr dashboard and I saw a bajillion pictures of creamy and mouth-watering crepes. So now, I'm craving for some. I want to eat the bacon crepe Jonah introduced to me. It's, by far, the best bacon crepe I've ever tasted in my entire life. I'm not even sugar-coating or exaggerating. It's so delicious, it's making my mouth water right now. Huhuhu. I want to eat one right nooooow.

I was looking at my multiply account and, God, it was so immature and hilarious. =)) And everyone looks different back then. Especially Ampy. OHMYGOD I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING WHENEVER I SEE AMPY'S FACE DURING OUR 4TH YEAR OUTBOUND TRIP! =)) There's this one picture, she has a really weird smile. It's freakin' hilarious. I miss them so much. :))

I'm in such a rainbow-somersault mood, I want to hug everrrrrrryone! Hihihi!

When Life Gives Me Lemons, I Make Lemonade

2011-10-24T17:49:00.001+08:00

So, it was my enrollment today. I'm officially enrolled for the 2nd semester. My schedule is fuuuuucked-up. ANYWAY, I love watching movies. And today, I'm going to post my 5 favorite movies.

1. American Psycho

2. Tears of the Sun

3. V For Vendetta

4. Peacock

5. 300

Beauuuuutiful films. You guys should see all of these. Hihihi.

Walking Disaster.

2011-10-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

Of course I'm going to regret all of these things tomorrow. They're going to make me pay for this. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel bad for being a selfish and inconsiderate son-of-a-bitch. But, as of this moment, let me lick my wounds. Truth be told, I'm sick of this house (I thought that this could be, like, my haven during this sem break. Oh, how very wrong I was) and I'm still a little sick of school. So, can you see my dilemma? I don't know where to go.

Can you fucking kill me now? I'm not even kidding.

When Will My Misery End?

2011-10-22T23:30:00.001+08:00

OMG. HAHAHAHAHA. Joke lang 'yung title. Jusko. Nagpapacute lang ako. HAHAHAHAHAHA. =)) OMG. I'm so freakin' hilarious! =)) Anyway, I'm so happy right now I could shit rainbows. I'm back at our house as of this moment. Tomorrow, I'm going back to the hospital. Grabe. Internet deprivation.. I went straight to the router when I got here and drowned myself in my happy cyberworld. Hihihi.

If you haven't heard that song up there yet, it's high time you listen to it. It's an old song but it never fails to make me smile. KBYE. HAHAHA! Seriously, tho, it's a very beautiful song.

I'm feeling good about some things right now. I hope this euphoria stays. Buy me a new pair of Vans, for sure, I would be happy for, say, 2 weeks. I want a new paaaaair. I really want a new pair! :(( Buy me one! I can't wait to give myself a Christmas present. Or a birthday present. Or both at the same time. Anyway, this is some of the designs I want. (In case someone wants to surprise me.. *coughs* Mommy. HAHAHAHA. Joke.)

This is sort of, um, for guys but, BUT I think it's gorgeous.

Technically, I don't have any green shirts. But, I really think this color is cute and fruity. So...

I want the Blue and Purple one! That design's my favorite. Seriously, I want this so MUCH.

I like both of these designs. Can I have these two? Pretty please? OMG.

Hay nako. I'm going to treat myself one or two of these for Christmas. Tas sa birthday ko nalang yung Schu flats. Or not. Hmmm. I have to think about it. As of now, I'm really drooling over the thought of a new pair of Vans.

Here Is Everything I've Always Meant To Say.

2011-10-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

Life sucks. It has never been kind to me. Never.

Or maybe something's really wrong with me? Maybe I'm an annoying, pessimistic jerk? What do you think?

Ahhhh, no. Actually, I prefer my first statement.. Life really sucks. Suck-ish, suck-ish son of a bitch.

(OMG. My blog hasn't been a happy blog recently.. I'm so sorry! SERIOUSLY! Must get back to the normality everyone's accustomed to. Mehehe.)

Can Anybody Please Save Me?

2011-10-14T16:32:00.001+08:00

This is really selfish but can I just say that I don't want to stay at the house right now? I don't want to go to school either. I want to go to the Bahamas or Nigeria or Ghana, any place where nobody knows me, and stay there until I'm ok.

God, I was looking forward to this month-long semestral break ever since school started this June. By God, I'm so annoyed and irritated with everyone right now. Everyone here's been shouting and yelling at me for, what, the past few days. And, seriously, it's getting on my nerves now. Ok, fine, I get it, you guys are friggin' stressed out because you go out early in the morning and you come back at around 11 pm or 2 am. I get it, you're busy, but, God, COME ON, you don't have to shout at me for every little mistake (and I mean LITTLE) I make. God, you guys, of all people, should know how much I've been looking forward to this sem break and the fact that I could stay away from all those awful people. I'm this close to tearing everybody's heads off.

And, you know what, it's not easy to take care of a very old and hard-headed grandmother who wouldn't freakin' eat ANYTHING. Do you know how frustrating that is?! I would give her a tiny portion of food and she wouldn't even finish a third of it. I don't know what to feed her anymore except the Toblerones she graciously devours. It's also frustrating because she falls down every fucking time she stands up. Do you have any idea how frightening that is? She couldn't freakin' walk to the bathroom without groping my arms because she would fall down! By God, it scares the bejesus out of me.

Then, you guys would come home and you would nag me to do this, do that, don't forget this, remember that. OH HOLY JESUS HAVE MERCY ON ME. I'm trying ok! I would egg her to eat some more and I would even tell her that I would wait for her even if she takes 3 hours to finish the food I gave her. I always remind her to take her medicine on time. I am even her own walking stick. So, you see, I am FREAKIN' trying. You guys just have to know that this is not an ordinary old person we're talking about. You should realize how difficult it is to take care of her.. With her rants and her constant whining and, dear God, her insensitivity towards the help. Seriously. I know it's selfish of me to not understand her and everything but OMG, can you please see my situation, PLEASE, PLEASE?

I'm sorry for this fucked-up feelings. I should know better. I should understand more. But, the thing is, I can't. I need someone to understand me too.

Give It Your Best Shot And Try.

2011-10-13T15:23:00.003+08:00

Yeah he's a looker,
but I really think it's guts that matter most.
I displayed them for you,
strewn out about from coast to coast.

I am easily make believe,
just dress me up in what you want me to be.
I'll take back what I've been saying for quite some time now.

I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.

In my daydreams, in my sleep,
infatuation turning into disease.
You could cure me, see all you have to do now
is please try.
Give it your best shot and try.
All I'm asking for is love,
but you never seem to have enough.

I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
This life is way too short
to get caught up in all this stuff
when I just want you to love me back,
why can't you just love me back?

Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you)
Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you)
Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you just love)

I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
This life is way too short
to get caught up and all mixed up
when I just want you to love me back,
why can't you just love me back?

Why won't you just love me back?

Why can't you just love me back?

This is such a gorgeous song. I could listen to it forever. Hihihi. Anyway, I've been rewatching a lot of Audrey Hepburn films. Did I ever mention that my favorite Audrey Hepburn film is Sabrina? OMG. Bogie's so darn cute there. I can't believe I used the word "cute" to describe Humphrey Bogart. What is wrong with me? Anyway, baaaasta. Hehehe.

I'm enjoying my sem break so far. I don't have to wake up early or go to school on a Tuesday, Thursday, or Saturday. I don't have to see anyone I frigginly hate and loathe. I don't have to pretend I'm happy with the people I would rather see dead and suffering. (Man, when did I become so mad with the world? I seriously need to go to a happy session or something. I got to chill the fuck out. Seriously.) Don't get me wrong, there are about 4 people I miss in that hell-begotten place but that's that. ANYWAY, carrying on, I could fucking laze around the house and no one would care. Well, come to think of it, that's not entirely true. My dad's pushing me to read biology and calculus books. For the love of God, can he please give me a month to relax.

So, anyway, I want to finish watching Supernatural's season 4 but my mom sort of forgot where she put it. And, since she's not in the house most of the time, I don't know where I could find it. Jodie said na naunahan na daw ako ni Racielle sa panunuod. :)) Hay hay.

K. Whatever.

Kiss My Sass.

2011-10-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

So, it's my other lover's 32nd birthday today.

Happy birthday Gabe Saporta. You are such a gorgeous person. I want to make beautiful babies with you. KBYE HAHAHAHAHA. =))

Random Fact: I had a phase where I wanted to dress up just like him. =)) K.

I Swear That She's The One. ♥

2011-10-08T18:52:00.001+08:00

So, yeah, I guess I was right. It was my hormones talking yesterday. After 10 hours of sleep, I'm a hell lot better now. Mehehe.

I watched GGS05E1 & Episode 2 today. OMG. It's freakin' amazing. I was bracing myself for disappointment but it didn't happen. The first episode was so gorgeous. And, can I just say that I totally ship Dan and Blair? Why can't Dan be the father of Blair's child? God. I hope this season wont end in, uh, letdown.

ANYWAY, listen to this song:

I promise it's not suicidal and emotional. It's amazing and beautiful and gorgeous. Heeheehee.

HELLO SEM. BREAK.. I'M SO HAPPY!

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2011-10-07T23:45:00.013+08:00

Thank you Jesus because it's the end of the semester today. I wouldn't be seeing anyone for a month! A MONTH! Is it weird because that makes me 98% happy? I want to take a break from everyone at school because of some reasons I am not free to state. God, I wish I could just evaporate so I could stop seeing them forever. ANNNNNYWAY, YAY! The first semester's over! God, give me OK grades, please.

.. And, thank YOU, you freakin' son of a bitch, because you're very willing to sell me out. What an asshole. Get bent, douche.

I think it's my hormones talking. Dear Lord, I don't know what I'm typing. I'm just tapping and typing away. I swear, it's my hormones talking. Or my dead brain. God, I must sleep now. Beginning to get a little cranky.

Euphoria.

2011-09-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

I'll continue my Day 01 blah blah blah thing some other time. Anyway, I can't wait for my semestral break. Hihihi. I wouldn't have to go to school for a month. How sweet is that? I could curl up on my bed and stay with my mom all day. Hehe. I wish I could see my HS friends during this one month. I miss them so much.

Anyway, I want to buy new flats but I don't want to spend the money I've meticulously saved. I love having money. Actually, I love saving up. I don't know what I'm saving up for but I love saving up.

As of this moment, things happening at school and things happening at my house are.. heart-breaking. And I don't even want to dwell on that. SOOOOO, I don't know. I don't know where to go and who to talk to these days. I miss Jodie so much. :-(

Maybe I'm PMS-ing. But, no, actually, I don't know. Ugh. Whatever.

Fresh Breath.

2011-09-16T21:26:00.008+08:00

Day 08: A picture that makes you laugh.

ISN'T THIS PHOTO HILARIOUS? HAHAHAHA! It's so freakin' funny. I don't know about you guys but this picture.. FREAKIN' HILARIOUS! =))

Through Thick And Thin.

2011-09-15T08:58:00.007+08:00

Day 07: A picture of your most treasured item.

Meet my battered and tattered 4-year-old baby.

Say hello to Ipe. He's my trustworthy iPod. I can't imagine ever replacing him. Swear!

Off With Her Head!

2011-09-14T21:41:00.027+08:00

Day 06: A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

Does this have to be someone who lives in the present times? Oh, what the hell. ANYWAY, if there's someone I would want to change lives with.. It would probably.. *ding ding ding ding*

.. Anne Boleyn.

Call me a geek or what, but I'm really fascinated with the history of King Henry VIII's six wives. And I have a soft spot for Anne Boleyn because after divorcing or annulling his marriage with Katherine of Aragon, the King married her and then had her killed. (After going through all that trouble with the church and everyone else, he's going to behead her in the end. How awful.) And then he married Jane Seymour.. Then Anne of Cleves.. Then Catherine Howard. And lastly, Catherine Parr. I dunno. Anne Boleyn is one of my favorite wives. Hihi.

Ok. I'm a dork. Please don't judge me.

I Wonder If I Ever Cross Your Mind? For Me It Happens All The Time.

2011-09-13T23:23:00.002+08:00

Day 05: A picture of your favorite memory.

This one's easy. Pancakes, even. Want a bet?

Behold the people I love the most! My HS friends. :">

I'm probably one of the dweebs who can't get over High School. The thing is, the people there, they love me and value me and enjoy my presence. It's a two-way thing, really. I love them and I value them and I enjoy being with them. They are my cloud's silver lining.

High school is my favorite memory, well, because I was happiest there.

My song for them is Lady Antebellum's Need You Now. =)) K. HAHAHA. Funny ko, super. :)) Pero swear. They always cross my mind. MEHEHEHE. =))

Would You Lie With Me And Just Forget The World?

2011-09-12T20:43:00.006+08:00

Day 04 - A picture of your night.

I spent my night staring at Toby. Man, this hamster sure knows how to get rowdy. :))

Dumb-Ass.

2011-09-11T19:33:00.020+08:00

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

This one's tough.. But, hmmm. Here they are:

I love this show so much. I didn't watch it on its original airing years. Still.. Huhuhu. Very funny! I love Fez and Hyde so much. HEHEHE.

I LOVE CHUCK SO MUCH. Swear. Huhuhu. Loooove it so.

Ok, fine. Jonah's right.. This show is freakin' amazing and hilarious. Hehe.

I couldn't choose just one. So, I put the three shows I would never get tired of watching and rewatching and replaying. Hihi.

Seventeen Tracks And I've Had It With This Game.

2011-09-10T12:41:00.000+08:00

Day 02: A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.

This one probably goes to Luner. He's my childhood friend. We've been friends since we were 7. :)) And, until this moment, we're close. Funny story, when we were younger we were, um, "frenemies" (Excuse the kabaduyan of the word). =)) We would fight and then we would become friends again. And then we would fight again, then make up. I miss this guy. (Plus, Bea, Marianne, Tin, Tanya, Vina, Queenie, and Trisha.) Mehehe. Good times, good times.

I Love You, However, You Hold Me Down.

2011-09-09T23:01:00.032+08:00

Since I'm bored out of my wits and I do want to try new things.. Let's try this 60 day challenge thing. :>

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of your night.
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.
Day 31 - A picture of a tradition you have.
Day 32 - A picture of a crazy night.
Day 33 - A picture of the house you grew up in.
Day 34 - A picture of your currently most played CD.
Day 35 - A picture of your favorite place to eat.
Day 36 - A picture of your ‘other half'.
Day 37 - A picture of the people you spend most of your time with.
Day 38 - A picture of the best part of your day.
Day 39 - A picture of your favorite movie.
Day 40 - A picture of your favorite Disney character.
Day 41 - A picture of your pet.
Day 42 - A picture of your dream house.
Day 43 - A picture of something you can’t function without.
Day 44 - A picture of someone you’re told you look like.
Day 45 - A picture of your room.
Day 46 - A picture of where you wish you were right now.
Day 47 - A picture of your favorite place to shop.
Day 48 - A picture of your favorite actress/actor.
Day 49 - A picture of where you live.
Day 50 - A picture of your most frequented place.
Day 51 - A picture of your dream car.
Day 52 - A picture of your favorite sport.
Day 53 - A picture of someone you think is hot.
Day 54 - A picture of the one thing you would bring if you were stranded on a deserted island.
Day 55 - A picture of the last movie you saw in theaters.
Day 56 - A picture of something that makes you happy.
Day 57 - A picture of your favorite holiday.
Day 58 - A picture of your favorite animal.
Day 59 - A picture of a random item that you own.
Day 60 - A picture of something you’re excited about

For Day 1.. It's a picture of myself with 15 facts. Hmmm. Let's see..

I'm the scare-diest cat in the whole wide world. Ghosts and ghouls scare the bejesus out of me.
I couldn't sleep without any light. There should always be at least one open lamp when I'm sleeping. (Especially when I'm alone in the room.)
My first crush was Manuel Quezon. PLEASE DON'T JUDGE ME. =)) In my defense, I always see his face on printed money.. And I thought he was freakishly handsome. :))
I don't like animals with fur or hair. I'm having a hard time with Toby right now because I don't want to touch him. I'm not being maarte, I'm just scared. I'm having vivid visions of him (and any other furry animals, for that matter) attacking me.
My first name was supposed to be Raissa instead of Rina. My dad didn't like it so.. Yeah.
I like gory, psychological, and war movies. I don't mind murder or bloody scenes. But, you can't expect me to watch horror films. Ugh. Weakness.
I couldn't live without deodorant. Seriously. There should always be deodorant on my kili-kili. It's just a habit I couldn't break. I get really uneasy if I don't use deodorant. @-)
My first pet was Shirley, a goldfish. =))
I love potatoes and okra.
I don't like sweet viands. Seriously. I don't like Korean BBQ or honey-ed chicken or any sweet ulams. I like my food salty.
I didn't learn how to commute until I was 19. So.. That's this year. I'm such a loser. :|
I'm fascinated with history. I love reading things about the Tudors, the Romanovs, Napoleon Bonaparte, etc.
When I get obsessed with someone, I'm really annoying. =))
I love food more than I love people.
And, contrary to popular belief, I am not a lesbian.

That Was When I Ruled The World.

2011-09-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

I have to be honest with you guys, SAD and SUICIDAL songs LOVE me. Seriously, they do. I could listen to the most suicidal songs in the world and I would still be fine and ok. Don't get me wrong, I am not suicidal at the moment but I dunno.. I like listening to sad songs. It's like my reality checker. See, I'm always laughing or smiling but I know that that's not life. Life is a jerk and is full of misery. So, in some ways, sad songs are my reality. I mean, c'mon, they talk about death and troubles and problems.. And, well, let's face it. Life is about all of that. Sure there's another world to sing in but when will you ever reach that other world? Are you getting me? So, yeah. It's just death and all the bad things around there for us.

Maybe I'm pessimistic. Maybe I'm looking at the glass all wrong, maybe it's half-full after all. Or maybe, just maybe, I'm right.

Fold Your Hands, Child.

2011-09-01T21:08:00.020+08:00

Happy 1st of September, everyone! :-) Next week is going to be a hectic week. Dear God, I just remembered.. I must finish the script for our Miggy B production. And then there's the Exp. Psych. lab report. And then the Spanish Dialogue. Oh God. Oh well. At least there's Yam's birthday to look forward to. Plus, sem break's near. Hihihi.

Anyway, I went to F21 today with Yammy to buy the dress I need for her birthday. Cha ching. Girl's clothes. Crazy.

Oh, dear God, YOU MUST ADD THIS TO YOUR MUST WATCH FILMS! (And I should add this to my Jared Leto movies collection. MEHEHE.)

This movie is BRILLIANTTTTT. Or mababaw lang talaga ako? Whatever. I enjoyed this film so fuuuuhreakin' much! Heart-stopping. Plus, Jared's here. He is so bloody gorgeous. <3 <3 <3 Oh what the hell. Just watch the movie! :-) I don't like the ending, though. I think it's unfair to.. K. I don't want to spoil anything. Just watch Panic Roooooooom!!!! :-) Mehehe.

Your Mom Is A Fruitcake.

2011-08-30T21:12:00.001+08:00

So, let's add this to my Jared Leto movie collection:

I watched it today. It's a coming-out-of-age (or whatever you call that genre) film or something. It was ok. It wasn't as awesome as Mr. Nobody or as mind-boggling as Fight Club but, heck, it was ok. The movie's setting was in Ireland. Jared has an Irish accent here. It was also set on the 70's. Hehe.

Jared's ass was shown here. Those cute buns are so nummy nummy! I could just eat it up. MEHEHEHE. Kidding. Or not.

Man, classes are back tomorrow. God, I don't want to go back to school. I don't want to go back there. :(( Can't wait for sem. break. I miss my HS friends. SO FREAKIN' MUCH. I want to see them and hang out with them. :-(

This Simple Answer Is Never What It Seems.

2011-08-29T13:52:00.001+08:00

This morning, I'm going to post the Jared Leto movies I've watched. (Note: In some of the movies, he only has supporting or teeny tiny roles. Still, it's not a movie without Jared Leto. Kbye.)

1. American Psycho

I guess this is my favorite movie. Jared Leto is not the main character here. He's just a supporting someone who got killed in the movie. Still. ANYWAY, shameless plug, GUYS, YOU SHOULD WATCH THIS MOVIE! I loooooove it so much.

2. Mr. Nobody

Jared's the protagonist here. And, I just have to say that I LOVE this movie so fucking much. SERIOUSLY.

It's.. I dunno. Saddening and mind-boggling at the same time. Mmmm.

3. Requiem For A Dream

Awesomesauce. Convinced me not to do drugs. Swear! (P.S. Jared is so freakin' hot here!)

5. Urban Legend

Jared Leto is the star of this film, supposedly. Alicia Witt has more scenes! Hmph. Still. :))

6. Alexander

Man, he's breathtaking here. I could drown in those blue eyes of his. HIHIHI.

7. Fight Club

He has a really tiny role here. He has about, what, 5 scenes and 10 lines? :)) Anyway, THIS IS A MEGA FUCKING AWESOME FILM! Mind-blowing! No shit. I love this movie so much.

8. Lord Of War

Jared Leto's role here has a big impact on the viewers in the end. I don't want to spoil anything, just watch it. I like this movie a lot. Especially the message. You'll see.

9. Chapter 27

He's really fat here. =)) Nice movie, tho.

And now, I'm currently downloading Girl, Interrupted and The Last Of The High Kings. I wanted to watch Black and White (RDJ also stars there!!!!!!!) but I can't find any torrent-site thingy that could seed it properly. Hmph. Oh well. My goal is to watch all of the movies Jared ever starred in. Hehe. My devotion for Jared is undeniably.. Scary and bordering crazy. Pero kasi naman.. I love Jared Leto so much!!!!!

Suicide Sunday.

2011-08-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

When I was younger, I used to have a list of my crushes taped on my mirror. Every now and then, my dad would look at it and ask who Billy Martin is, who John Joe Joseph, Billie Joe Armstrong, Mike Shinoda, Adam Lazzara are. A while ago, my dad checked my list and commented why my crush list is not updated (Jared Leto, RDJ, William Beckett, etc weren't there.) I told him that that list hasn't been updated for about 4 years now.

So, yeah. This post is for my dad. :))

1. Jared Leto. Obviously.

Should I really elaborate? Haven't you guys had enough? /:) :))

2. Robert Downey Jr.

Syempre, it wouldn't be Rina without old guys. =)) ANYWAY GAAAAAH. I love RDJ so much! Pero mas nakikita nga lang love for Jared ko these past few months. There are some pictures na super magkamukha sila. Hay. Iisa lang hitsura ng mga crush ko. :| :))

3. William Beckett

Bill Beckett is so CUTE! I can't understand why my friends can't appreciate his handsomeness. :))

4. Tyson Ritter

Please don't judge me. =)) I really think he's cute and funny and.. GAAAH. <3

5. Josh Duhamel

OMG. He's so nummy, nummy! I could just eat him up!

These are the top guys on my list right now. They're the star of my fantasies. Well, mostly it's Jared but.. What the hell. I want them all to be my husband or boyfriend. HIHIHIHI.

Winter Is Coming.

2011-08-27T17:32:00.000+08:00

I started reading Game of Thrones last Tuesday. And until now, I haven't finished it yet. Blame it on my school works and The Sims 3 (God, Jared Sims Leto and Rina Sims Leto are so fun to toy around. I could play The Sims for 8 hours straight. No kidding.) Anyway, yeah, I've been too busy with my Leto Sims Family that I sort of neglected Game of Thrones. Don't start giving me those icy looks and raised eyebrows, though, I'm just a couple of chapters away from the ending! I'm almost done. Hihihi. The book is so fuhreakin AWESOME. I swear. Jonah's right, after Harry Potter, it's probably one of the best books ever. Hay. I should've listened to Jodie when she was talking about the awesomeness of Game of Thrones non-stop during summer. It really is brilliant. Can't wait to watch the series! I have to really thank Dennis for giving me the copy of the series. Mehehe.

I'm looking forward to the long weekend ahead. Finally, some free time with my family. Huhuhu. I really miss them. Like, 100000000000000x a day, I would just wish that my mom's with me. I love her with all my heart. Talking to her stops the uneasiness and queasiness I feel. I love, love, love my mommy.

I just got back from our shoot. I'm the PA for Tomatalakay so I have to trail around the Segment Producer, Segment Director, EP.. Basically, everyone else. Oh well. After Tomatalakay, I'm going to be a Production Design Staff. I'm going to be under Chon (that sounds so wrong.. But.. What the hell.), going to Divi again to buy all the stuff we need for Ronda Tomasino. Then, after that I'm going to be the Segment Writer. See, I don't want to have high roles, as much as possible. I'm too lazy to think and function. Seriously. I can't make my brain work.

Darn it. I must get my head on the game (Troy Bolton style) MEHEHE. Must take school seriously. Hopefully, soon.

So..

2011-08-22T21:33:00.015+08:00

This is what I'm feeling right now. Mixed emotions shit.

And this is me for the last couple of weeks:

PMS is such a BITCH.

I'm No Jesus But Neither Are You My Friend.

2011-08-20T20:39:00.002+08:00

C'mon baby, I still love you. You are my bright, little, ray of sunshine! I wish I could see you everyday. Whenever I listen to your songs and stare at those bright, blue eyes of yours.. God.. I fall in love every fucking time!

That raven-haired, Croatian boy.. OH MY GOD. There are times when I think my feelings and infatuation for him's fading.. Then I would listen to some of 30 Seconds To Mars' songs or watch one of Jared Leto's movies and then.. God, I'm back to base one.. Staring at him and fantasizing about him all day long. GAAAAAAH. Jared Leto -- you've ruined me for any other man.

I Still Got It.

2011-08-17T21:11:00.002+08:00

So, maybe there was a time when I finally loved UST. Then something snapped and, what the hell, I'm dreading everything all over again. Waking up early, going to school, blah blah blah. See, I don't have any motivation to go to school. From the moment I step inside my classroom, I'm slowly counting minutes and hours until my professor announced the end of the day. Ugh, dear God. What is wrong with me? I've never been this miserable before. I was always a happy pancake.

Can somebody murder me now? As in, now?

Maybe We're Just Trying Too Hard.

2011-08-13T16:26:00.002+08:00

This week has been a total blur. I don't even want to talk about it. I don't even want to think it! Ugh, God. Annoying person. Please don't come near me. I hate you with a burning passion. I mean, God, c'mon.. I don't even like you. Ugh. Stop talking to me ever.

ANYWAY, can I talk about something else? Can I talk about one of my favorite-est bands in the whole wide world? Hint: They're coming on October 19 (?, not pretty certain about the date, tho. Hmmm, come to think of it, I'm 98% sure it's the 19th.) It's Sum 41! After Death Cab For Cutie, they're my favorite-est band. I mean, seriously, have you heard their songs? I dunno. Basta, I like them super. :>

Some of their awesome songs, listen!:

There's a whole lot more, but, what the hell.. You're taking the crash course, right? So, yeah. Listen to these awesome songs and you are going to dieeeee for Sum 41. HIHIHI.

That Girl's A Trick.

2011-08-12T22:55:00.006+08:00

What a freaky little sneaky bastard. Sneaky, sneaky, sneaky.

So, I'm Not Moving.

2011-08-11T17:28:00.000+08:00

So, I started listening to The Script. As in, LISTEN because Jonah's always telling me that they're awesome and Yam's a fan, so, yeah. Anyway, wow, they really are good.

God, it's my prelims week this week and, wow, my brain is tired. Besides this hell-week, TV prod is just, hmm, tiring and exhausting. Don't get me wrong, I'm enjoying the things I'm doing but it's just.. Yeah, Exhausting. I don't want to think anymore. I don't have any social life anymore. I miss my parents. I miss my mom. The only thing that makes me want to wake up every day is my Jared Leto fantasies. He keeps me going. HEHEHEHE.

Isn't he nummy, nummy? I could just tear his ass up and cuddle with him. AYYY KBYE. Kidding aside, maybe I should just make a Jared-Leto-Appreciation blog? I mean, what do you think? I've been flooding everybody's dashboards (especially in Tumblr) with my gorgeous lover's face. Then again, who wouldn't want to stare at Jared Leto? HIHIHIHI.

I Fell Apart But Got Back Up Again.

2011-08-06T08:14:00.004+08:00

Busy and CRAZY week.
Prelims next week.
Fil concept paper, deadline tomorrow 9pm. UGH.
Exp. Psych. quiz. The fuck. Anyway, deadline on Monday. Shit, shit, shit.
Can't believe it has been a week since I saw my lover, Jared Leto.
Still in love with Jared Leto. I think he's my forever. HIHIHIHI.
Currently waiting for Yammy to text me. We're off for our breakfast day. KBYE.
Alibi by 30STM makes me feel.. Hmmm. Nostalgic.
I love Jared Leto.
I freakin' love Jared Leto.
My friends want to kill me for obsessing over Jared Leto.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAH JARED LETOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

La Nuit Du Chasseur.

2011-08-03T21:14:00.009+08:00

Been obsessing over this song FOR DAYS. God, listen to it. It's one of the best songs in This Is War:

Seriously, you should listen to it. My nummy nummy nummy Jared Leto. <3

Isn't he a vision? God, I can't stop thinking about himmmm! Hmph.

Have A Little Faith In Me.

2011-08-02T23:08:00.005+08:00

Wow, it's August already. Hmmm. Can I just say that I miss my mom so much? I miss talking to her and laughing with her and laughing at her. I miss her so much. I wouldn't be seeing much of her for the next, what, two months. My schedule is so jampacked. Even Fridays are work, work, work days. :-( I miss my mom.

On something different, gaaaaaaaaah. I can't stop thinking about Jared Leto. He's my super duper crush. Hihihihi.

One Night To Remember, One Day It'll All Just End.

2011-07-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

So.. Yesterday, I watched 30 Seconds To Mars with Jodie. YES I DID! YES I DID! It was raining so hard but it didn't stop the fans from screaming and enjoying the show. OMG. I almost died when Jared Leto started singing Attack. My heart was racing so fast and I just couldn't stop grinning! OMG. I SAW JARED FREAKIN' LETO! After days and weeks and months and months and months of swooning and daydreaming about him.. I finally saw him. HUHUHU. BEST FREAKIN' DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. SWEAR! (THANK YOU MACKEE FOR MAKING THIS HAPPEN HIHIHIHI.)

Jared's hair was flat so I was kind of disappointed. I like his lion-like hair. Jodie likes Shannon. >:) Jodie and Shannon sitting on a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G! HEHEHE. Can't blame her.. Shannon IS cute. Swear! Didn't see much of Tomo. Hmph. I like him too. He's funny!

Jared Leto overload. <3 <3 <3

Again, Mackee Garcia, THANK YOU FOR THE TICKETS. I love you forever!!!!

After All This Time? Always.

2011-07-27T21:44:00.060+08:00

No classes today! YAY. It's my grandma's birthday too. FOODIES!

ANYWAAAAAY..

Got this from Jodie. I haven't watched Deathly Hallows part 2 but.. What the heck. Potter's Army through and through.

1. If you went to Hogwarts which house would you be sorted in?

SLYTHERIN. B-)

2. Have you ever been to the HP midnight release?

Never. I'm such a loser. :|

3. What did you think of the Deathly Hallows p1?

In all honesty, I don't like the movies. Hmmm, Deathly Hallows p1 was ok, I guess?

4. How many times have you reread the books?

A million times!! NO KIDDING! I would read HP1 until HP7. After finishing The Deathly Hallows, I would then go back to The Sorcerer's Stone and reread everything. No life, sorry. =))

5. Whose death was the saddest?

Snape, Hedwig, Sirius, Dobby, and Fred's. Plus Dumbledore. OMG. Can't choose. All of their deaths made me cry. :-(

6. If you went to Hogwarts would you rather have an owl, a cat, or a rat?

A toad. KIDDING HAHAHAHA. Probably a snowy owl like Hedwig. B-)

7. What do you think of the movie Half-Blood Prince?

It was the funniest Harry Potter movie! Swear. Some details disappointed me tho. Like Slughorn, he should be more.. Grandfatherly-like and.. I dunno. Can't explain it.

8. What do you think of the deathly hallows being split in two?

Wise decision.

9. Have you read the Tales of Beedle the Bard?

Not yet. :-( I'm such a freakin' loser. I want to read it tho.

10. When did you first become a Potter fan?

When I was in 2nd grade. So, I was about 8 y/o that time.

Favorite…

Female character?

GINNY WEASLEY. :-)

Male character?

Probably one of the twins. UGH. I like Ron, Sirius, and Snape too!

Professor?

Probably Professor McGonagall. :-)

Death Eater?

Same as Jodie's, Bellatrix Lestrange.

Magical creature?

HIPPOGRIFF!

Spell?

Hmmm. If I were in Hogwarts.. I would probably enjoy Sectumsempra or Levicorpus. It's cool kaya!

Quote?

"Why are you worrying about You-Know-Who when you should be worrying about You-No-Poo? The constipation sensation that's gripping the nation!" K. Namemorize ko na. It's funny, I swear! =))

Book?

Hmmm. Half-Blood Prince and Prisoner of Azkaban! And, ok, I guess Order of the Phoenix na din. I want to kill Umbridge!

Movie?

Sorcerer's Stone & Chamber of Secrets - because they stuck to the book. Plus Half-Blood Prince because it was hilarious.

Hogwarts House?

Slytherin. Please don't judge me. I really like Slytherin. No idea why. :/

Place?

Hmmm. Hogsmeade and Hagrid's hut, I guess.

Weasley?

Ron, Fred, George, and Ginny. :))

Couple?

I like book Harry/Ginny. - OHMYGOD JODIE ME TOO!

This or that

Gryffindor or Slytherin?

Slytherin.

Ravenclaw or Hufflepuff?

Ravenclaw.

Fred or George?

Probably Fred. He's tackier and more.. I dunno. Basta, I like Fred. :))

Ginny or Luna?

GINNY!

Butterbeer or Firewhiskey?

Butterbeer. :-)

Hogsmeade or Diagon Alley?

Hogsmeade. B-)

Books or Movies?

Books!!!!!

Half Blood Prince or Deathly Hallows?

Half-Blood Prince.

Philosopher’s Stone or Chamber of Secrets?

Chamber of Secrets. :>

Snape or Slughorn?

Snape!

Lupin or Sirius?

Sirius! :-)

Harry/Ginny or Harry/Hermione?

Book Harry/Ginny LOL pwedeng Malfoy/Hermione? =)) - ME TOO. OMG MALFOY/HERMIONE HAHAHAHAHA! Pero cool nga no?

Lavender Brown or Parvati Patil?

Parvati! Lavender is annoying.

Seamus Finnigan or Dean Thomas?

Dean!

Kreacher or Dobby?

Dobby, but Kreacher needs proper credit. - Agree.

Muggleborn or Pureblood?

Pureblood. SORRY. =))

Dan or Rupert?

Rupert Grint. :-)

Bellatrix or Narcissa?

Bellatrix!

Voldemort or Tom Riddle?

Tom Riddle! Handsome, handsome boy. B-)

Hedwig or Crookshanks?

Crookshanks - FOR REAL JODIE? Anyway, Hedwig ako. HIHIHIHI.

What's The Story, Morning Glory?

2011-07-25T22:33:00.002+08:00

Quimbo & JC's 19th birthday last Thursday. Mehehe. Before that, Yammy and I went to Divi to buy some TV prod stuff.
Bulacan last Saturday-Sunday with my Lit groupmates. I could live there forever! The food's GREAT!
Going to school TOMORROW to finish making the props thing. Ugh. I thought Tuesdays and Thursdays could be my rest days.. But, NO, it's more hectic than my MWFS schedule. :|
30 SECONDS TO MARS CONCERT THIS COMING FRIDAY. Fuck me! My dad's giving me mixed signals so.. I don't know. Ugh. God, please let him cooperate. This is freakin' Jared Leto for crying out loud!

No, No, No, No!

2011-07-16T23:52:00.002+08:00

This is my favorite song from their This Is War album:

IT'S AWESOME, isn't it?

Ugh. I still can't believe we didn't make it to the Top 7 thingy. I really, really, really want to see Jared Leto, Shannon, and Tomo! (I like Tomo too, he's funny!)

I WANT TO SEE THEM PLAY SO BAD.. IT HURTS. :-(

Open Up.

2011-07-15T19:45:00.005+08:00

Dawson's Creek, Filipino version.. Tabing Ilog. Man, I love the song. (Just so you know, I didn't watch the show. I love the song tho. Pretty pretty pretttty!)

Everything's Magic.

2011-07-14T16:35:00.006+08:00

Ugh. Awful week. When will I ever have a nice, relaxing, and happy week? I thought Tuesdays and Thursdays were made free-days for, um, free. But, NO. NO. It's as stressful as going to school from 9 am to 9 pm. Hmph.

Anyway, school's definitely not boring but it's not super fun either. So-so.

Can't wait to watch Harry Potter 7.2!

Forever Potterhead. Hihihi.

I Think You're Wonderful.

2011-07-09T19:24:00.002+08:00

This is such a crappy week. Ugh. Yesterday I told my mom every little thing that was bothering me. Since I was having a depressing week, she bought me cupcakes and a new bag. My dad was asking me why I'm eating a sweet and fattening cupcake, I told him that I'm depressed and then I said, "Diba Mommy? Depressed ako? Kaya bawal ako awayin. At pwede ako kumain neto." My mom smiled and agreed with me and told my dad to just let me be. K. :)) Actually, after telling my mom everything, I sort of felt.. Ok.

I'm supposed to have a telebabad session with Jodie right now but she ditched me to watch Transformers 3. Hmph. What a friend. HAHAHAHAHA JK. I miss her so muuuuch.

Anyway, super awesome song:

I woke up this morning,
I found that I had a smile on my face,
I asked myself what this was for,
And I remembered you and I thought of you.

Reality: you barely know me,
I want to know you,
I wanna sit beside you and talk about anything,
I wanna be with you,
Everyday with you.

But that, that won't happen,
It probably won't happen,
No way, no way.

Then I looked at all the fresh drama,
I got frustrated,
And I went back to sleep,
My dreams were of you and your pretty face,
When I got up I wanted to get out of bed.

You barely know me,
I want to know you,
I wanna sit beside you and talk about everything,
I wanna be with you,
Everyday with you.

But that, that won't happen,
It probably won't happen,
No way,
That would be the day.

I can, I just say I think you're wonderful,
Can I just say I think you're wonderful, wonderful.

You barely know me,
I want to know you,
I wanna sit beside you and talk about anything,
I wanna be with you,
everyday with you.

But that, that won't happen,
It probably won't happen,
No way,
That will be the day.

Because you barely know me,
I want to know you,
I wanna sit beside you and talk about anything,
I wanna be with you,
Everyday with you.

But that, that won't happen,
It probably won't happen,
No way,
That will be the day.

Noooo way.

I'd Have Done The Same As You.

2011-07-07T07:47:00.001+08:00

Cath, she stands
With a well intentioned man
But she can't relax
With his hand on the small of her back
And as the flash bulbs burst
She holds a smile
Like someone would hold
A crying child

Soon everybody will ask
What became of you
'Cause your heart was dying fast
And you didn't know what to do

Cath, it seems
That you live in someone else's dreams
In a hand-me-down wedding dress
With the things that could've been
All repressed

But you said your vows
And you closed the door
On so many men
Who would have loved you more

Soon everybody will ask
What became of you
'Cause your heart was dying fast
And you didn't know what to do

The whispers that it won't last
Run up and down the pews
But if their hearts were dying that fast
They'd have done the same as you

And I'd have done the same as you.

This is probably one of the best Death Cab For Cutie songs ever (and one of the most mainstreamed, I think) nevertheless, it didn't stop me from loving this song. I think it's gorgeous.

I know I've said this a bajillion times, but, GOD, Death Cab For Cutie is the best band in the whole wide world. I only know a handful of people who like them. And, I think that's kind of sad because they're freakin' awesome! I would die for Death Cab. No, I'm not kidding. I don't, and I don't think I would, get tired of listening to their song over and over and over and over again. They're my super duper favorite band. *giggle giggle giggle*

Anyway, yesterday, we went to see some cadavers. It was cool. I pity those people because they died in mental institutions and home for the aged orgs, no one came for them so the institutions donated/sold them to be dissected. Sad. Sad day.

Since Monday, I've been playing The Sims 3 non-stop. That stuff is addicting. The last time I played The Sims was when I was in 6th grade.. Maybe that's why I'm so addicted right now. Hmmm.

I don't want to do the Socio homework. UGH GOD.

Breaking My Back Just To Know Your Name.

2011-07-02T19:03:00.000+08:00

Happy 2nd of July everybody! How fast time flies. It's almost Christmas! Anyway, on this beautiful Saturday night.. I'm staying at the dorm and I'm all alone and lonely. I think this is the bad and sad part of being away from your family and your own house, you always feel, hmm, detached. Oh well. At least my parents are going to pick me up tomorrow. Can't wait for the fast internet at home! I can't wait to sleep on my lovely bed and very plump pillows at home.

I'm currently listening to a lot of suicidal songs. I don't know why. I think it's kind of weird because my playlist is full of depressing, indie, and disheartening songs. These are the kind of songs I listen to everyday. Weird. OMG. It's so weird, I mean, even if I feel like I'm on top of the world, I would open my iPod then drown over Ben Gibbard's voice or Bloc Party's songs. Don't get me wrong, I also listen to very loud music. Sum 41, Senses Fail, Breaking Benjamin, 30 Seconds To Mars.. You name it, I also love those kind of songs. Extremes.

Ok, whatever. This week was ok. I should overcome my shyness and become a brazen young woman. Hmm. So, yeah. Yes. Okay.

I'm Not Saying "I'm Sorry."

2011-06-30T09:55:00.000+08:00

At the end of the day, all I have to do is reset my password here in order to blog. Ugh. I must not forget my new password. Anyway, I have no classes today because it's a Thursday! Yay! I love my T-Th sched. HIHIHI. Last Tuesday, I went to Yam's house for free internet and free food. I feel so loved. KBYE. Today, I'm going to Nikki's house! Sige, ako na ang pulubi na papunta punta nalang sa bahay ng mga friends. K. :)) Nikki and I are going to make a very special video. <3 <3 <3 I am so excited! I would do anything for tickets. I would sell my soul for gold tickets. =))

Yesterday was a very fun day. If you know what I mean. Anyway, it was fun. It was ok. The only glitch was the stupid Globe signal. HASSLE. UST, please fix your Globe cell sites thingy. PLEASE.

Guys, listen to 30 Seconds To Mars' Closer To The Edge. It's my favorite song from their This Is War album. HIHIHI.

Amber Is The Color Of Your Energy.

2011-06-25T16:06:00.000+08:00

For the past few days, I've been having these weird gushing feeling whenever I look at an Amber Heard picture. I don't think these are lesbian feelings. Hmm, I just find her really hot, gorgeous, and attractive. I don't fantasize about her, though... Yet. Kidding aside, God, I find her really pretty. She's like a mini version of Scarlett Johansson. <3 <3 <3

Isn't she a babe? OMG. She's so pretty. I just want to cuddle with her. AYYY K. =)) As far as I'm concerned, these are not lesbian tendencies. Although I think I'm in love with her. HAHAHAHAHAHA. JK. I just think she's really hot and gorgeous. Someone I'm not. KBYE. =)) God, my hilarity is on a roll!

Stop-Along The Way.

2011-06-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

I love Gossip Girl. I've been with them through thick and thin. My favorite season was season 1. I think it was the best. Blair's hair wasn't annoyingly flat, Serena's hair was not lanky and dry-looking. Even Chuck's hair was better there. The only hair I didn't like in that season was Nate's. His hair was funny-looking. Anyway, it's not just about the hair.. I think their dresses and outfits were better in season 1. Ok, fine. That was not a good reason. Hmmm, can I just say that GGS01's plot was very, very good? After S02E01, season 2 went downhill. It wasn't that fun to watch anymore.

Anyway, here are some nice season 1 memories:

See, Blair's hair was better! Even her clothes were better.

Even Serena was better here!

Oh GGS01.. Good times.

Mhm, Bad Nose Job.

2011-06-23T23:50:00.011+08:00

If you were to ask me what my favorite fairy tale is, I would probably say, "Penelope" without any hesitation. See, I am not a fan of love stories because the cheesiness grosses me out but, I think Penelope is an exception. (Hmm. Although, it's not really cheesy. No problemo.) Partly because James McAvoy was so maddeningly hot and attractive there but mostly because of the plot. It's like a coming-out-of-a-shell story.

It's a nice movie because it talks about Penelope's curse being lifted if someone of her kind learns to love her and her very bad nose job, if you know what I mean. In the end, all she has to do was learn to love herself. She just needs to accept herself and make the most out of it. I think that's one of the best fairy tale-ish message a fairy tale could give you. Learn to embrace your imperfections and learn how to love yourself.

I think James McAvoy is devilishly handsome in this movie. Or I just really like guys with long and messy hair. Mmmm. Anyway, if you haven't watched it yet, you're missing the other half of your soul. Oh yeah, did I mention that Sigur Ros' Hoppipolla is featured here? That makes this movie more awesome. Hihi.